Tuesday, December 27, 2011

Selfish

Some of you might know, I have three kids. Their Mother is not there. She is a drug addict and an alcoholic. She turned her back on them years ago. I moved on and have dealt with the repercussions of her decisions. I have done my best to ease the pain, heal the wounds, and absorb the anger they feel.

I have and continue to raise them the very best I can.

My children's "Mother" committed suicide on Christmas day.

Although they have not had a relationship in quite some time, this is going to be a hard punch to the stomach.

Selfish.

Thursday, December 1, 2011

I was tempted to delete every post on this blog.
I am not entirely sure why.

I may do something.
What?
I am not entirely sure.

Tuesday, April 26, 2011

I'm still here. I'm always here.
Bad grammar and good behavior.
Broken cigarettes, broken teeth.
Misdirected positivity, misguided society.

"Ever get they feeling you've been cheated?"

Sunday, February 20, 2011

Its always the unavoidable that hurts the most. The split second that makes a pit in your stomach.....and  words that will mold the rest of your life. Words that if said one to many times, may come true. You can only take certain words back so many times before they stick. Starting of like a germ on a doorknob, quickly turning into the flu.
If this is what it is it will never go away. There will be no later dates, just the nauseous, gnawing pain of what was.
I am trying to keep that pit from rising, I feel as though I'm losing.