Saturday, February 27, 2010

I want to get hammered

with snow......and i don't even like snow. Tucked away in my house or my favorite spot at Starbucks....
then the snow is just watch.
For a week now it has switched between rain and snow. Sometimes I like the snow better because, you can move it around and out of the way. This morning it snowed just enough to make a mess and required me to shovel the drive way. 3 and 1/4 inches of  lovely aggravation. The kind that if  you don't shovel chances are there will be a deep freeze and make a real mess or,  you will look really lazy for leaving it.
Now that i have done my manly duty......its going to be 40 degrees and sunny. That surely would have melted it.
 I'm raising my coffee cup to the one town in the northeast. The one that can miss the four feet of snow.
Yes, I'm sure I would be whining about that too, but at least that's worth shoveling.

Thursday, February 25, 2010

Good, bad, or a sign of heart failure.

You ever have that feeling?
When your heart is really tight. You don't really know if its good, bad, or a sign of heart failure.
It moves down to the spot in your stomach. The spot that is reserved for the things you don't know what to do with. The things that scare the hell out of you. The things you have not figured out yet, and your not even sure if you want too. The things that make you happy. The things that hurt you, but for some reason you cant seem to get rid of them.Yet.
Maybe it's the uncertainty and unknown that's in everyone's life, jabbing that spot in your stomach.... so you don't forget it's there.

Monday, February 22, 2010

Graaaaave Diggeeeer!!!!

                     I'm no Redneck.......really I'm not. I think you could be the girl-est of girls or men, and still enjoy big ass trucks crushing things. We went to Monster Jam on Saturday. Not just the boys and myself, all of us. Three boys and and four girls. What a way to top off the trials, tribulations, and complete loss of patience that comes along with five children on February vacation. Hey i have idea:
 Lets drive them a hour away, try not to lose them in the crowded arena, and then afixiate them with exhaust gases.
Oh lets not forget installing five Pairs of earplugs. Honestly that went o.k. aside from one crying eleven year old girl, " I don't like these kind!". Well.... she wore them, we moved on. One causality of a outing is better than seven...
 All went well. Kids had fun, we had fun, and everyone made it home in one piece. They are actually pretty good travelers. This is the second year we have gone, I'm looking forward to next year......
  Now with all that said, I have a question........Why does Grave Digger always win? Every time. On t.v......wins. In real life.......wins. I swear its rigged.
 The popular truck when I grew up was Big Foot. I'm sure we all remember that name. Now its Grave Digger.
I don't remember Big Foot winning all the time.
 You didn't think i was just going to write about a little family outing did you?
Not to detract from the fun of these types of activities, but why does corporate America have to ruin it all?
I know these trucks are costly to build. Drivers need to be paid. I'm sure everything that goes along with this industry is big money. So enter sponsors and backers and so forth. I get this, trust me 120 bucks in shirts never-mind ticket cost. .
 What happened to grass roots America? Let the best driver win. Damn it I burned my toast.......
Ya know, build it, run it, and hope the judges score fairly. The Monster Mutt  Dalmatian truck(female driven,I'll add) ripped it up in the freestyle and high air. She lost by one point to Grave Digger. HUH? I mean she really out showed him. Grave Digger's headlights were flashing and his theme music was on before the scores were even in.
 Now the Nitro Circus truck is fairly new. He botches two runs??? I don't think Travis Pastrana is going to let some gutless driver represent his truck. Just saying.
 I have to hand it to the Grave Digger dynasty though. Seven different drivers, and i would assume as many or more trucks. Way to lock up the next Twenty five years guys.
No, I didn't express, my discontent to the kids. Its really for them anyway. It just gets me when a seven and eight year old ask "why does Grave Digger always win?" "oh, because he is really good."
 All in all its fun. If you have the opportunity to go, I would.
What the hell, you could even make a Grave Digger banner!

Thursday, February 18, 2010

A case of the fuckits

Yes that's right, the fuckits. I caught a case a while back. Its all the rage right now. Its pretty easy to catch and the symptoms are really easy to identify. If you catch your self saying, aww fuck it more and more....well you probaly have it. Please don't confuse it with the fucku's, fuckthis's, fuckthat's, or the idontgiveafuck's. The WTF'S occur more on forum's and text messages, they rarely occur in humans.                                                 As far as i know there is no prescription for it.
Besides if  there was a wonder drug for the fuckits it may cause:
diarrhea,vomiting, aggression, burning while urinating, increased suicidal thoughts, thoughts of homicide, yellowing of the face,hands,and private places, decreased sex drive, increased sex drive, morning wood, uncontrollable gas, laughing when people slip and fall, blogging, and in some cases it may cause a more severe case of fuckits called, the fuckthisshit's.
For further information on these and more really common ailments please contact:
Your local, state, or national government
The hipster emo queer kid who cut you in line at Starbucks to order the most complicated drink in all of barista world......then bitched about it.
Or me, but you may end up with a case of the pleaseshutthefuckup's.

Tuesday, February 16, 2010

Spam, friends, and the internet.

I was reading this post in the forum Link, if your so inclined . I wanted to respond but i think i was interrupted, or maybe I was supposed to be doing something else. What took me away from a public coffee shop bitch session isn't important, whats important is that it fueled something for me to write about.
 Twitter, Facebook, Myspace and all the other "social networking" sites that are crammed down our throats. My local news station has a facebook page. Why? Find your classmates, that one really gets me. If i haven't kept in touch with someone since middle school.....I'm going on a limb here...... I more likely than not don't want to now.If you were a douche bag in 8th grade, you probably still have D.B. status now.                       Now Twitter........Oh boy, (insert famous name here) just tweeted that they had a fucking burrito at taco bell.......22 seconds ago. Oh boy, hot off the press......(insert famous name here) is having diarrhea because of a burrito from taco bell......5 seconds ago....tweet,tweet.
 Myspace , good to promote a business, music, art, and things like that. I don't give a damn about your emoticon mood, who your friends are or how much you drink at frat parties. I don't....... really i don't.
 Facebook.........I hear is better than myspace, but still useless in my opinion. Same damn thing.
If you have not figured it out.....I do not have a account on any of them.......GASP....
  Now this brings me the the post in the coffee shop.
Spam, friends, and the internet.
I have made some"friends" if you will thanks to blogger, that was not my intention. Not even a little. I want to blog for me. Yes we all would like to be followed. Followed by people that like to read what you write that is. I would rather have 2 followers that are down with my antics than 100 that are just hoping for a return courtesy follow.....Ya smell what I'm stepping in here??
 The internet is a tricky place to navigate, as said in the thread. Yes it can be. Why are people so paranoid? Do you really need to ask that question?! If you go looking for trouble, your going to find it. Usually when you find it, its because you were looking. That is not to say that shit doesn't happen, but really now this is the "internets" I'm talking about here. We all were taught to check our Halloween candy right? Could be that the neighbor down the street put a razor blade in your snickers or some poison in the reeses cup........if the candy looks funky......don't eat it........if the link looks funky......don't click it. Never mind smart.

 A fellow blogger (insert blogger name here) told me i was safe, because i am faceless. Think about that for a minute. Realy think about it. I like this blogger and enjoy the blog they if your reading... and you know who you are, whats up(insert blogger name here)?!!!
 Going with the faceless thing for a moment. I really did think about it. I'm using it in a different context now, than when it was said but, that's fine this is my blog and your playing in my world at the moment.
 I looked at myself. Are you Starts With One? Does this reflect you? Yes i think it does. I have not faked on myself. I have yet to start conquering what i want to do within this blog.........but its me. Its me where I'm at in life right now.
  It was said by the author of the post......
"I think if people would create content, and be creative, even chat some,
that people would hopefully stop acting like everything online is criminal or fake..  WTF?!"
 Besides the fact  i think it was poorly written, that statement doesn't make a lick of scence to me.
I checked out his blog.....its not my style. That is fine, not the problem. What irritated me the most?....
The txt grammar, and it looks like a floating spam page, not saying it is.......just a little ironic that's all.

  So i realize that i may have insulted a few with my view on networking sites. Some of you might agree. Some might have put on there big girl/boy undies and, know that its just my opinion, i don't hold judgment on anybody who owns a mentioned site. I'm a little pissy this evening, my views could change......but not on the social networking thing

 With all that said I'm going to eat a frozen pizza..........TWEET TWEET.

Friday, February 12, 2010

Going to the Doctor Of Orthopedic Medicine this morning.
I'm not a fan of going the the docs, but it needs to be done. Hey look at that, have the opportunity to do something i wouldn't of had the time to do normally. I'm taking it.

Wednesday, February 10, 2010

The land of opportunity part 2

Well, I think what brought this about for me is a comment i made. A fellow blogger posted a question in the forum. He was in need of some advice. His situation is not something that i am currently dealing with but,  it did make me think: i should take my own advice.
 I told him to "harness the time he does have".
I tend to procrastinate a little, and push things right to the deadline. I'm not saying that i waste time totally and completely.(ok maybe when arguing with trolls). Some of you know my work situation or lack there of. I have, and continue to make a  valiant effort at finding a job. I have made constructive use of my time on this, but what I'm really talking about here is the rest of the time. I do not fit in a box, and I have always nodded my head to a different beat. This makes the traditional 9-5 a little difficult. Unfortunately the reality for me right now is, i need to do something.
 At almost four months into being jobless I'm feeling like i could be pursing more. Other avenues. Things I have not had the time to do. Creativity is a gift not to be wasted. I feel that sometimes i waste this gift and , the opportunity it could present. Instead on searching high and low for a mind numbing, nothing job, why not use this time to discover what i can do on my own. What i have already done on my own....... "harness the time he does have".
 I left a pot of water boiling on the stove. I forgot about it. The water was boiling down. What was it boiling down too?
 The almighty dollar. Now listen i like money as much as the next person. In fact i would love to have pots of it boiling down all over my kitchen. I however do not.
 The fact that i have 5 children and , a beautiful fiance to support leaves my thoughts really conflicted on all of this. I would love to start a business. My own business. On a shoe string. Ground up. With a large family like mine that does present a bit of apprehensiveness. Maybe its fear. Fear that has been crammed down our throats by society. You can't do that. How are you going to do that? Just get a real job. It takes money to make money.........
 Maybe the current state of the U.S. is the opportunity. The real  opportunity.

Monday, February 8, 2010

The land of opportunity

Taking advantage of opportunities can be difficult. Good or bad, both situations present a certain amount of opportunity. If taken advantage of properly they could bring desirable results. It seems that life, or my life could use a little finesse in this area. I'm not looking to be a true master of the medium, just a little more........well..............opportunistic. Doors as they say open and close all the time. I have been trying to knock on the closed ones, instead of looking or even peeking into what may become open.......or has been open for awhile.
 More on this later, I think I need to take this "opportunity" to collect my thoughts

Thursday, February 4, 2010

I'm going for a walk

Said in the song by Bad Religion. For those that may know.
My cars been off the road for 4 months. Unemployed for 3 or so. I feel like i'm about to lose my shit. The isolation gets fierce after a while.I was sitting here looking at this forum and realized i dont have a fucking idea how im going to get through this never mind having constructive or somewhat interesting insight into anything. Everyday has been spent drinking coffee, smoking cigs, listening to political hip hop and anti everything punk. Its not helping the matter,really. I cant even seem to post on my blog. Not even some worthless nugget of information about a irrelevant happening in my life. I give myself a headache trying to figure out wtf I'm going to do to support my family. Forget about myself...
 Maybe I'll go look at "abstract art" in the library...same shit I know i could do better, but for some reason i don't have the motivation or self confidence to do. This lady is selling this stuff for like 500 a painting, and its selling! Not that I'm some kinda art critic, and i really shouldn't be shitting on someone i don't know that is doing well ......i guess. Maybe i can go down to the skate-park that's covered in ice and snow, damn frozen waste land of a small town in Massachusetts. Maybe I should bring my camera just in case some major 20,000 dollar photo presents itself.  Maybe i should post this on my blog. Maybe?
 I suppose I'm done my piss poor little rant. I'm going for a walk.

Tuesday, February 2, 2010

So one of the children in my tribe took this picture. I think its speaks alot of different volumes, depending upon how your looking at it.